Hmm….so totally sad….
Tomorrow will be the last Friday for the West Side Story – the last Friday, Saturday and Sunday nears.
Not sure if by a good twist of faith, one will re-stage that play, and anyway, I’m not quite sure if West Side Story will go into broadway next year. Hmm, then where it wil be?
West Side Story.….it ends for me
Main cast for this year
And it is officially 1 year!
My blog turns 1 yesterday and now, I could comfortably (to the slightest degree) call myself a “personal blogger.”
This entry is simply a ‘reminisce’ of the past…..
It’s rainy season once again and I can’t help but thinking over and over when about a year ago (I think), I was doing laundry for my school unifrom and deeply thinking about how exciting it would be to officially land in your ‘dream job’ and proudly called youself a “graduate” after battling in the academe for four years with bitter-sweet encounters.
And I guess, it’s been a year passed since I watched a TV documentary and tremendoudly enthused about the incoming “iskolar ng bayan” from all walks of life, facing initial real-life difficulties during enrolment. And how, in about a time, the university “seemed” to be now inclined with the ‘elite’ and ‘upperclassmen’ of the society roaming around the campus. There was an issue there indeed….
And…..all these things and thoughts happened a year ago and it won’t completeley occur for the second time!
However, a lot of people in the whole wide world are hard-core idealistic, I must say. Because I, myself tend to be a BIG TIME IDEALIST even before entering college until the time I attended this once-in-a-lifetime “Commencement Exercise.” Yes, commencement is definitely the beginning….until the time I stepped up the stage, I still have these ideals that I’ll forever stick to. And recently, I came to reallize will those idealisms of mine will bring me into those dreams that I have longed wishing for?
I should write vaguely, period.
Dictionary defines:
ideal – existing . . . in fancy or imagination only; lacking practicality
idealism – the practice of forming ideals or living under their influence
Indeed, I was living under the influence of wide ideals and it was such a big deal (for me) if I should abide into it or would rather resort to realistic circumstances. It seemed to me that I “MUST” do the latter and erased those ideals to a little degree.
I once dreamed to be a TV dcumentarist but it seems that I was too far away from it – and now it was some sort of fancy indeed! What I’m presently in is into the reality that I won’t get any offer or an entry-level post as a researcher either. On the other hand, I’m still apt to stick into my high school dreams and will rather prepare myself for a number of failure and rejection that will come along the way.
And I will never ever forget those people whom I have known for some years in college where we started creating our very own dreams and plans right inside the academe. I dreamed once with a good friend of mine that we’ll enrol in the Graduate School of Harvard University…while others, I’ve learned that they wanted to enter the field of Public Relations, Corporate Communications, and Advertising. My blockmates several times they told me that they wanted to pursue an MA in Journalism while the other wanted to be an AM radio jock in her favorite evening program. I’ve known a few who still wanted to pursue their passion in photography to the point of applying for the post while I knew one blockmate who really wanted to be a writer and the other one, a screen writer. I always believed to those people who wanted to be film makers and be famous for their endless unique ideas. I had a close friend in college who planned to work for United Nations right after graduation. I met these people who still have dreams of working in broadcasting networks even if it meant starting at the bottom. I’ve known several people who wished to work abroad hoping that they will find ways for a decent living. And just recently, a graduate of Management Accounting planned to work briefly in a BPO company for the sole pupose of earning and will later enrol in the Conservatory for Music….he simply wants to be a musical scorer for film….
These were the dreams….and it seemed to me that our dreams tend to lie in the realms of our own ideals with only hopes, prayers and continuous dreaming. But where we ended up?
Now, I have something to write on my blog.
I was hardly thinking several days ago of what would be the most comfortable and heartfully-driven topic to write about until I finally realize that all of my realisations for the past days were all seemed “worthy” and quite “sensible.”
I scarcely thought of myself to be landed in a call center job nor seen myself applying for such. Yes, I barely thought about it but never settled myself to grab an offer whenever I find myself rejected from all the applications I have made in advertising and production companis. And up to these days, I can’t help but being a little sentimental everytime I visit my so-called Alma Mater – where dreams started to become an almost-reality and a place where everyone crafted his own worldly idealism.
It’s quite sentimental in some sense that I, myself have battled it out in the academe for four fruitful years and only later did I find myself in a BPO company. I’m not underestimating the job itself or in any ways but I was just being sloppy over this matter! You’ve labored and experience d all these hardships for four years, crafted vision for yourself, built dreams and armored yourself with tons of knowledge and there, you found yourself somewhere in a cubicle answering phone calls and customer concerns (not to mention complaints).
And I must say, there was a BIG hesitation rather than frustration….but as I’d like to think these statemets from someone: WALA NA SILANG PAKIALAM…..HINDI NA NILA BUHAY ‘TO, BUHAY NA NATIN ‘TO!
And I would also like to believe that being a school buddy is quite fun and enjoying than commencing an (unexpected) job where you feel (or maybe think) that you’re too old to be young or too young to be old!
After a dive for clams, people from Brgy. Longos in Bacoor, Cavite seemed to have done it all and they may finally come home
Buyers and sellers of clams gather after a day's venture in the sea
A view in the Coastal Area during an ironically rainy season in October
a little girl sits under a look-like bank terminal as she watches her brother out in the sea
clams matter and so the money!
This boy had recently collected clams and ready to pull it off for business
Street children on their leisure...
KOWTABLE “quotes”
Katrina Halili: Minahal ko po si Hayden…..
Hayden Kho, Jr.: Everytime we see each other, there’s no real conversation. It’s all about drugs and sex, drugs and sex….
Abner Afuang: ….napanood ko yung video e, hindi ko matiis…..may anak akong babae!
*The whole thing was literally funny!
Can’t you hear that I am laughing?
1st hearing scenario: an ex-cop and former politician from Pagsanjan, Laguna named Abner Afuang poured on the remaining of his bottled water to Hayden Kho, Jr., now infamous for his sex-y video while singing ‘I never gonna dance again, my guilty feet has got no rhytmn….’ While on the other side (or should I say on the same table), Katrina looked terribly worried with an earlier commotion.
Ang init sa kwarto!
I should say that the whole thing was literally funny. As I watched four news programs till late night, I can’t help but grinned to those commotions and the issue of sex scandal itself. I mean, everything will not be in public if the actors themselves strictly kept it as a TOP SECRET! Or better tracing Kho, he’ll not be in the situtaion where he is now should he not generously gave the video to someone else. And now that they are in the peak of nationwide publicity, many have sympathized with Katrina while the rest were outraged by the good-looking boy Hayden Kho, their filmed acrobatic stunts, and the sex-y video itself.
On one hand, Katrina Halili was applauded by several women who have believed and was stunned by her for being couragous amidst the scandal. And please, it’s all opinion here, I pity Katrina on the early explosion of the issue, however, I don’t know what I would feel whenever I think that ’sex is for married couple only.’
Can you imagine, amidst the politicking for May 2010 elections, still, these actors never failed to get public attention. Wow! And because of this, broadcast stations have now tackled and emphasized cyber sex and pornography to form awareness especially among young adults who are reportedly been actively engaged into pre-marital sex. Moreover, civil groups and other movement have strengthen their advocacy on sex, violence, and women protection stressing that ’sex is for married couples only.’
Not to mention that Mr. Abner Afuang, a journalist himself seemed to have his advocacy and ‘publicity’ for good – magbuhos ng tubig sa loob ng hearing na para bang walang nagyari.
And I will never forget what I hear from someone while ’she’ was watching Katrina Halili on the news: Pag nakikita mo si Katrina, para mo na ring nakikita ang ___ n’ya.
And yes, it was one feisty hot moment when they were doing those stunts, and then one day, they realized that they were not in bed anymore and naked, but being watched by millions of Pinoy on youtube and pirated porn DVDs…..and now, in front of law makers and the press for contemptuous words and denial of the past.
Truly, media can make or break you!
And here goes again one quotable quote from Ms. Katrina Halili: ….patay na ‘ko pero may video pa rin at internet!…
“
Katrina Halili: Minahal ko po si Hayden…..
Hayden Kho, Jr.: Everytime we see each other, there’s no real conversation. It’s all about drugs and sex, drugs and sex….
Abner Afuang: ….napanood ko yung video e, hindi ko matiis…..may anak akong babae!
*The whole thing was literally funny!
Can’t you hear that I am laughing?
1st hearing scenario: an ex-cop and former politician from Pagsanjan, Laguna named Abner Afuang poured on the remaining of his bottled water to Hayden Kho, Jr., now infamous for his sex-y video while singing ‘I never gonna dance again, my guilty feet has got no rhytmn….’ While on the other side (or should I say on the same table), Katrina looked terribly worried with an earlier commotion.
Ang init sa kwarto!
I should say that the whole thing was literally funny. As I watched four news programs till late night, I can’t help but grinned to those commotions and the issue of sex scandal itself. I mean, everything will not be in public if the actors themselves strictly kept it as a TOP SECRET! Or better tracing Kho, he’ll not be in the situtaion where he is now should he not generously gave the video to someone else. And now that they are in the peak of nationwide publicity, many have sympathized with Katrina while the rest were outraged by the good-looking boy Hayden Kho, their filmed acrobatic stunts, and the sex-y video itself.
On one hand, Katrina Halili was applauded by several women who have believed and was stunned by her for being couragous amidst the scandal. And please, it’s all opinion here, I pity Katrina on the early explosion of the issue, however, I don’t know what I would feel whenever I think that ’sex is for married couple only.’
Can you imagine, amidst the politicking for May 2010 elections, still, these actors never failed to get public attention. Wow! And because of this, broadcast stations have now tackled and emphasized cyber sex and pornography to form awareness especially among young adults who are reportedly been actively engaged into pre-marital sex. Moreover, civil groups and other movement have strengthen their advocacy on sex, violence, and women protection stressing that ’sex is for married couples only.’
Not to mention that Mr. Abner Afuang, a journalist himself seemed to have his advocacy and ‘publicity’ for good – magbuhos ng tubig sa loob ng hearing na para bang walang nagyari.
And I will never forget what I hear from someone while ’she’ was watching Katrina Halili on the news: Pag nakikita mo si Katrina, para mo na ring nakikita ang ___ n’ya.
And yes, it was one feisty hot moment when they were doing those stunts, and then one day, they realized that they were not in bed anymore and naked, but being watched by millions of Pinoy on youtube and pirated porn DVDs…..and now, in front of law makers and the press for contemptuous words and denial of the past.
Truly, media can make or break you!
And here goes again one quotable quote from Ms. Katrina Halili: ….patay na ‘ko pero may video pa rin at internet!…
Ang galing ‘no?!!
Akalain mo ba namang sa loob lang ng dalawang rounds e napabagsak na ni Pacman si Hitman! Take note, tatlong beses n’ya pa napabagsak ang Briton.
Purong komento: Hindi ako “big fan” ng boxing at lalo na ni Manny Pacquiao, pero aaminin ko, nanonood ako ng laban ni Pacquiao no’ng high school pa ‘ko dahil sa isang napakasimpleng rason na lahat ng tao sa bahay e nag-aabang sa laban n’ya – alam mo kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng “tensyon!”
Tama.
Puno ng tensyon ang sambayanang Pilipino ‘pag si Pacman na ang umariba at malamang, pati ang bahay n’yo e minsan nang napuno ng tensyon, hiyawan, pagkagigil at kung anu-ano pang paraan ng pag-chi-cheer kay Pacquiao kahit hindi n’ya naman kayo naririnig sa Nevada.
Disclaimer: Hindi ko ‘to sinulat bilang pagsuporta kay Pacman o para suportahan pa ang mga gambler or kung sinu-sino pang mga politiko o kongresista na nagpupustahan kung si Pacquiao ba o ang kalaban ang mananalo.
Eto ang punto: Ano nga ba talaga?
Balik tayo sa “purong komento:” Nakakainggit si Pacquiao! Akalain mo ba namang dalawang rounds lang yung inabot ng laban pero sa dalawang round na ‘yun e 30 minuto ang inabot sa TV! Anak ng—
Ang galing ‘no? Hindi lang namakyaw si Pacquiao ng TF sa 55/45 na hatian (tama ba?) nila ni Hatton, e akalain mo ba namang kumita rin ang network na “kinabibilangan” n’ya dahil sa sandamakmak na advertisements na maya’t-maya ang flash sa TV screen – at sa totoo lang, nakakairita! Imbis na makita mo yung ringside o binti at hita nina Pacman at Hitman e sige naman ang flash ng kung anu-anong produkto sa TV screen mo.
Oo alam ko, ‘yan ang business ng advertising dito sa Pinas at paniniwalaan ko yung statement na nabasa ko sa isang Advertising book na sinabing: You can tell the ideals of a nation through its advertisements.
O ano, agree ka ba? E ang business ng mga TVC at ad campaigns dito e mukang desperado – yung tipong lahat ng publicity e gagawin para kumita. Kaya nga pinaglabanan ng ABS-CBN at GMA ang East & West Battle na ‘to e dahil sa milyon-milyong malilikom nila sa ad placement sa TV…..at tandaan natin, pera ang pinaglalabanan dito!
Ayun, sa kasikatan ni Pacman, hindi lang Broadcasting Networks ang nag-aagawan sa kanya, hindi lang sampung kumpanya ang gustong mag-place ng ad sa East and West Battle na ‘to, at hindi lang s’ya recording artist/professional boxer/actor/TV host, hindi lang ilang tao ang kumita sa laban n’ya, kundi pati si Pacman mismo, kumita sa lahat ng ito!
P.S.
Sa lahat na yata ng nasulyapan kong laban ni Manny Pacquiao e ito yung “parang” walang thrill – yun bang walang tensyon yung suntukan at basagan ng mukha sa ring. Akalain mo ba namang maya’t-maya mong yakapin yung kalaban sabay saka mo didikdikin ng suntok….ano ‘yon, boxing pa ba ‘yun? Away-kanto na yata ‘yon!
Mabuhay ang mga Pilipino!
Mabuhay ang mga naiinggit kay Manny Pacquiao!
Mabuhay ang mga pumupusta sa laban ni Pacman, mabuhaypumupusta sa laban ni Pacman, mabuhay!
clap! clap! clap!
1. matutulala ka na lang. matutulala ka na lang dahil pagkatapos ng graduation at magdadalawang buwan na ay wala ka pang nakukuhang trabaho, at mapapatingin ka na lang sa kalendaryo n’yo sa sala o sa kuwarto mo o sa’n mang parte ng bahay niyo na antagal mo na palang “BAM” (tambay)! Sa kahuli-hulihan, matutulala ka at malulungkot sa dinranas mo ngayon.
2. desperate job hunters. Nagkakamali ka kung housewives lang ang pwedeng maging desperate…ba’t ‘di natin subukang ipares sa job hunters SLASH job seekers? Desperdo ka na talaga makahanap ng trabaho at kumita ng pera na tipong nakalimutan mong Labour Day pala at walang tao sa opisina na gusto mong pagtanungan kung may opening ba sila o wala (para sa katulad mo!).
3. makakalimutin. Malamang, sa kaiisip mo ng trabaho e makalimutan mo nang may iba ka pa palang problema – o ‘di naman kaya’y ma-divert ang atensyon mo sa ibang bagay gaya ng pang-uuto sa parents mo, sa kapatid mo o kaya sa tropapips mo! Halimbawa, mang-aarbor ka ng singsing, chokers at kung anu-anu pa…..
4. another les(s)ion gained. marerealize mo na hindi mo pala muna kailangang kumuha at makakuha agad ng trabaho na may kinalaman sa tinapos mong kurso. Bakit? (Tanong mo sa inaapplayan mo!)
Kung graduate ka ng Advertising Management, bakit hindi mo “muna” subukang mag-call center o kaya’y mag-apply sa isang fast food chain bilang isang trainee for a managerial position. Hihihi! Tunay ngang masaklap ang katotohanan pero baka malaman mo na lang sa banding huli na hindi mo muna talaga kailangang mag-apply ng trabaho na related sa tinapos mo no’ng college dahil isa pa, wala ng chance at iisipin mong masasadlak ka na lang sa kasalukuyan mong estado – tambay!
5. learn from your seniors. sa isang banda, ma-re-realize mo rin na may kabuluhan pala ang mga ‘words of wisom’ na sinabi sa’yo ng mga seniors mo no’ng nasa academe ka pa. Learn from the experts ika nga, pwede mong pagnilay-nilayan ‘yan bago ka maghanap at mag-apply ng trabaho.
6. magiging metikoloso/metikolosa ka. totoo. ingat ka sa pag-aaply….baka kasi yung sinasabi mong “pansamantala” na trabaho e maging career mo na in the near future, ouch! Ang sakit no’n! Yung tipong sinabi mo sa sarili mo na mag-co-call center ka muna habang hindi mo pa nakukuha yung gusto mong trabaho, pero ilang buwan o taon mula ngayon e may ‘career’ ka na sa industriya ng BPO.
//to be continued
Ok.
Today is May 1st……
So what’s so special about this anyway?
What about you?
Is this your birthday?
Wedding anniversary?
Or maybe another embarrassing moment that fell on this particular day….
…..another year that marks for Pinoy laborers – a “working” Filipino indeed!….
Let’s ponder how millions of Filipinos abroad and those unemployed, employed and underemployed consider this day as Labour Day, which I suppose shouldn’t be given much interest about. Aren’t you happy that you were categorized as “employed,” “underemployed” or maybe “unemployed?” There’s something to celebrate dude! You might be happy to be included on various surveys which say YOU are now one among millions of Filipinos who couldn’t find a job for a matter that YOU DO NOT FIT THE QUALIFICATIONS or YOU JUST GRAB THAT POSITION SIMPLY BECAUSE THERE IS NO CHOICE – YOU’RE QUALIFIED FOR A BLUE-COLLAR TYPE OF WORK!
*Sigh
It’s been a year though!
It’s been a year since I was passionately doing photography for good – not to mention that I roam somewhere down the hill just to get a good shot, good angle, a perfect picture of any thing. I was also on the status of an incoming senior then.
And here comes again that fateful day, just another year has passed and I was out with my photography stuffs. Totally out! Not a single penny for film and developing fees. And since I am an alumna, I was supposed to “go out” and find a good job – not (I think) a career for now. May career ba kasi dito sa Pilipinas? What I am settled to do now is to find job, visit job fairs, apply online, and personally walked-in to companies and gave those hardly-worked resumé I have labored for weeks or even a month just to craft it impressively hoping that somewhere along the line, I may be able to impress those hiring execs.
And yes, were at that point of giving out resumé, so what then?
***Finally, a year had passed – from photography to job hunting! Isn’t it an overwhelming transition?!?
They say that most of first-time experiences will never be forgotten, and I myself did. The very first taste of failure in seeking a job is indeed incomparable! I assume you had your own hint for the phrase, ‘very first taste of failure.’ And what exactly did I suggest with this thing is that when you do your job hunting seriously and you expect that somehow and somewhere along the road, your resumé will be pick out for a 30-second glance and then voila! And one day, when you picked up the phone to follow up your application, the hiring exec will just simply tell you: ‘ahm…..as of now, we’re not hiring fresh graduates…..we actually prioritize those who had the experience…..and blah blah blah….maybe you could re-apply if you had the experience.’
And that’s what I mean with failure – you worked for it seriously, had a “little” expectation for yourself, and then at one point, you failed – and which you might feel you’re all a failure! It’s as if the world is against you-that you had no chance-no opportunity-or maybe, the work turns away from you-and that you would not make any effort for the same thing because you were so devastated of your previous ‘mishap.’
And then, I came to think of these: those well-established companies, those who have carried big names and bigger reputation for themselves maybe had a little flaw for all their deeds and for all the power and professionalism that they are seeking in the industry. And that flaw is “prioritizing” those who have the experience and setting aside those who have not – fresh grads in particular. The problem is that either they don’t want to invest for these pathetic no-experience-at-all fresh grads or they just don’t want to invest time for training and supervision. Maybe, they had not yet realize how invaluable hiring these fresh graduates can be. – they can’t see the potential, the would-be skills of these people who had just newly came out from the academe – all that they can see is the experience…….experience, experience and experience!
Who knows?
Sabi ng isang news anchor, ngayon na lang daw umiyak at nagpakitang umiyak ng ganun si Pangulong Arroyo. E pa’nong hindi iiyak ‘yan e tears of joy baga ang nararamdaman n‘yan – sige sabihin na nating umiiyak s’ya ng may pighati pero kung ako, ikaw o sila ang tatanungin, ano kaya?
Sa kabila ng lahat, umiyak s’ya ng may halong awa at saya. Awa dahil sa kumitil ito sa walong sakay ng BELL 412 patungong Ifugao at SAYA NAMAN, DAHIL SALAMAT PO LORD (malamang nasambit ni Mrs. Arroyo ‘yon) AT HINDI PO AKO KASAMA!
MAY CHANCE PA ‘KONG—
O ano, malamang mabigat ang “tears of joy” do’n! Tuwang-tuwa ang ating mahal na Pangulo at hindi s’ya sumakay sa Presidential Chopper na ‘yun! At susuportahan ko ang minsang sinabi ni Mr. Lord de Veyra para sa ating Pangulo, ‘ANG SUWERTE MO, HINDI KA SUMAKAY SA HELICOPTER!’
Unang-una sa lahat, mag-so-sorry ako kung late akong mag-po-post ng isang napaka-interesanteng entry (para sa’kin) na napanood ko pa no’ng Lunes sa news program ng TV5 na TEN (the evening news). Nakakagulat no’ng lumabas si Lourd de Veyra (radioactive sago project) sa isang segment na kung saan ay ibinigay n’ya ang HOTTEST DESTINATION NGAYONG SUMMER na karaniwang suspek ay Boracay at Bagiuo. Pero ito, pwede mong ireto sa iba mong mga frens at mga forein-gers, at ito ang nasa list n’ya…..
(may mababasa kayong lines na galing mismo sa bibig ni Mr. de Veyra at ang iba nama’y na-paraphrase ko na habang ang iba’y sa’kin na!)
10
Payatas
– ‘mas hanep pa sa Chocolate Hills ng Bohol’
- isang gabundok na basura na malamang ay kumumpleto sa araw mo dahil makikita mo ang iba’t-ibang mukha ng kahirapan at pagkagutom sa Pinas
9
Davao
- Bakit?
- Kung may Mafia ang Italy, siyempre may DAVAO DEATH SQUAD naman dito, ‘diba exciting?
8
North Korea
- baka makita mo ang ‘the great leader na si Kim Jong-il na kamukha ni Dinky Doo – at kung hindi mo kilala si Dinky Doo,’ s’ya yung laging kasama ni ___________
7
Hong Kong
- “a nation of servant”
………….
- baka makita mo sa Tsip Chao at sakaling lumuhod sa harapan mo at manghingi ng sorry….
6
Luneta
- eto malupet!
- dito mo makikita ang ‘napakalaking photo nosaic ng great leader na si Pangulong Arroyo. Balak n’yang basagin ang world record na ‘Pinakamalalang Presidente sa buong bansa!’
- Anyway, nag-joke lang naman si Mr. de Veyra – ‘hindi, joke lang!’
5
Commonwealth Avenue
- magandang dalhin dito ang mga turista
- tara na’t makipagpatintero sa mga rumaragasang sasakyan, at kung madaling araw naman, mga lasenggong nakasakay sa motorsiklo at nakikipagharurutan sa mga trak at kapwa nila lasenggo. Kaya pagdating mg umaga, ayun dedbol sa kanto!
4
Lamesa Watershed
- ‘hindi nga, ang presko dito’
3
Kongreso
- sobrang lakas na aircon
- at siyempre, may chance kang ma-meet ang kapita-pitagang House Speaker na si Prospero Nograles na may -22 Net Satisfactory Rating mula sa isang survey agency
2
Sulu
- alam mo na ‘yun……
- Talipao, Indanan….ano pa ba?….
- Al Quaeda? hahaha
- talo pa nito kahit saang Disneyland ka pumunta…..dito sa Sulu, masaya, punong-puno ng aksyon
- may chance ka pa to meet and greet the Abu Sayyaf Terrorist Group
. . . may hula ka ba kung ano ang no. 1? . . .
. . . sige na . . .
. . . wala talaga . . .
1
Bilibid Prison
- aba, may tennis court na, may hamburger stand pa!
- baka ma-meet mo pa ang dati mong kakosa, este ang dating kakosa ni pareng Jalosjos
________
And that’s the end of our countdown……but wait, Mr. Lourd de Veyra has his final say…..
‘ANG SUWERTE MO, HINDI KA SUMAKAY SA HELICOPTER’
_______
nakuha mo?
