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poor August

I’d like to think that this is the hardest month I have encountered so far this year (when we talk of finances) but then,  the peak of my happy-day vacation after resigning from my first work.


I’m on my 20s and this is the time that I’ve learned to “rock” and August rock me as hell!

Since mid June, I never found a job…
Come July and I was celebrating my _ _ birthday
By August, I was like…mmm…I can’t think of the right word but…

Let’s just put it this way, I’m currently working for the pre-production of 41st season of Women’s National Collegiate Athletic Association (WNCAA), and this was the time that I finally set foot in the historic place of Intramuros after so much admiration and wanting to be in that place.

That was 8 August! And finally, I was in Intramuros!


‘a new damn application letter’

It was July 6th when I came to work for the first time after college….(eventually I resigned)…and a year after, I am struggling to write a new damn application letter and constructing such holy crap resume!


I came yester-night with the previous (and very first) company I worked with to accomplish my clearance and the exit interview as well…and the hardest part was…surrendering those “things” that has become part of me during my almost a-year stay at the company…it’s like leaving and surrendering a big part of myself…and at those very moment, you cannot exactly tell how the whole situation felt like…or could it just be something in my thought though.

…it’s like completely saying goodbye to the company and the people I learned to love with…and one of the reasons why I came to work is those people whom I learned to appreciate and understand…and now that I am clearing things up, it feels (until now that I am writing this blog) like you will never ever be ‘able’ to come back or it seems that I should just inhibit myself of thinking and planning to come back and see my colleagues again.

The thought that I am officially surrendering the stuffs that the company had lend me all throughout my stay and that I am parting away from them, it feels like it would take time to accept the whole situation…and as the saying goes, the truth is rarely pure, and never simple.

Inauguration – one such historic moment for another Aquino

a new light and a beginning; a freedom and an escape; dreams merged from two visionaries; people hoping for a better point…a new revolution

A heroic odyssey to bands of yellow and eyeglass(es). Now took oath as the President of the Philippines, Benigno “Noynoy” Aquino III had consistently used the color “yellow” to represent his and the Aquino legacy.

We had just come to a point that we must create such historic moment of putting Benigno “Noynoy” Aquino III, now President, as the highest ruling leader of the country.

Similar with the idealistic campaign of “CHANGE” by US President Obama, President Aquino himself and the Filipino people are now hoping that his administration will truly bring if not that considerable, but at least a distinct and evident change of what he promised during the election. With his campaign tag line: KUNG WALANG CORRUPT, WALANG MAHIRAP, he purposefully and somewhat subtly merged such idealism with “change,” so as not to look directly similar with the then candidate President Obama. Now that he took his turn and successfully influence a huge number of voters, ours is to support and celebrate such historic event….reinforce his advocacies; love him; negate his ideas and plans; create or make him through media; attempt to create a rally and even a coup; plan assassination (the same with the late Ninoy Aquino); create harsh and good criticisms on his administration; ….or we could just simply unite for one better “revolution!”

You chose him and so you have the freedom to recycle and re-invent our history….and we should just accept imperfections…we never know what’s in store for us under his administration…


100 years….the Centennial celebration begins today….Animo!

100 years…..they just started the Centennial countdown today…..Animo!

‘100 years of Lasallian presence in the Philippines’

I was never sure what ‘contemplate’ means until June 14th

It’s exactly 3 weeks from the last date of my employment and I’ll be officially completing my 1-year stay at that company.

It was a tough decision to leave the company (as this may always be the case) especially when you looked back and ponder all those bitter-sweet memories….and then with just one blink, you decided to let go and take a breathe.

It’s like a spur-of-the moment decision to file a letter, formally notifying the company that you’re leaving and your stay was pleasant and you enjoyed the support that the company has given you – of course, these were some of the cheesy lines that you’ll probably include in a letter. But the thing is, ARE YOU REALLY SURE THAT THIS IS WHAT YOU REALLY WANT?

On my last week, he told me ‘I’m giving you time to contemplate…’ but I was never sure what “contemplate” means until June 14th. I’ve heard this word once from one of my colleagues but never pay such time to look and understand the word, not until someone told me to do so (to contemplate) and then I pause for two days and kept on wondering what does that word mean – well, I read it myself and concluded that my decision is final.

1st June 2009 – until a year after….

I get to realized that this blog is no longer a mere “online journal” as I intended before rather, it seemed that it was a gallery of collective thoughts and memories – a sort of a paste board where you can post all the memories and things that you can perfectly (and partly) reminisce.

…and here I go again…it’s been a year since I  travel all the way to Eastwood Libis after being invited for my very first job interview. And after months of applying for my ideal jobs or should I say, career and after months of waiting for a job interview, finally, I hit off one luck of a lifetime!

Job hunting was such a painstaking task indeed!

And today, June 1st 2010 – it’s been a year since I finally got an invitation for a job interview and how ironic the situation is because I am currently rendering my last 30 days for my job where I initially landed to.
The thing may not be that painstaking as I am nearing to bade goodbye, but the thought that you’re “leaving for good” could be that sadder and harder part…
I finally decided…and I SHOULD leave for good!


This could be a quite tough decision for me….to resign or not to resign, that is the question!

….first WEEK/WEAK of MAY/…

Tuesday, 04 May – purchased 1202

Wednesday, 05 May – opened S/A

Thursday, 06 May – submitted my very first write-up at

– the whole day, I was thinking how will I approach my immediate supervisor concerning my plans to file a resignation the earliest time possible. And just the thought of it made me more stressful at work and with my colleagues.
It seemed that I could not find a good turn to personally talked to her since she was then pre-occupied with paperworks and with her personal stuffs.
…planning was very difficult…and so until the end of the day

Friday, 07 May – It was morning, shortly after 5:00 when our AVP announced that our supervisor will be resigning, effective 15 May but her last day of service will be on the 14th. Upon hearing those information, I was like ‘anu daw?’….and to may dismay, all I can think of was ‘sh*t! That was totally unfair!

He said that there will be an informal turnover to a new Team Leader later during that day and all of our files and downloads will be forwarded to the new manager.

What made it more disappointing is, when we’re done with the AVP, she came in telling some sort of stupid revelation that there’s actually one colleague who already knew her  plan of transferring to another new company. She made her application last February and just recently received a confirmation within that week that she will be officially starting her ‘new career’ with the new company on the 17th.
And what the heck! I was keep on thinking how many months did our fellow teammate knew her plans of exiting the company – in between the months of February and May, for how long did she knew it?
Well, i feel like she just made us stupid for doing that ploy and one of my teammate sarcastically and jokingly asked, ‘Boss, ba’t s’ya lang? Hindi mo ba kami agent?’

Friday afternoon, I came in to my Alma Mater and found out this information: Vicissitude 2009 was released on 23 April 2010 – exactly a year and a month after our memorable Commencement.

***I met Lenny, one of my high school classmate in sophomore – remember year 2003 when I visited her every night just to have some sensible and non-sensible conversation.


***I came in for work at 7:57 in the evening when in fact, we’ll be starting our work at 8:00

Saturday, 08 May
– I was late AGAIN! And now I found out that I had a reputation for ALWAYS BEING LATE!

And now, she (new supervisor) is starting to be a “hassle” in my life! (literally)

Sunday, 09 May – MOTHER’S DAY

I decided to meet my former classmate in high school who was just having a lavish vacation in Manila for we haven’t had any communication for 2 years or so, together with another classmate whom I haven’t seen for more than a year.

And that was a whole lot of fun!


Monday, 10 May 2010










It’s been more than a year since I wrote a blog entry for February 2009 (if I’m not mistaken), pointing out details and a little argument whether the automated election will be a reality in 2010 – which is evidently today.

Well, see my archive and look for its tags – I will always remember how I passionately put in words like PCOS in my entry when in fact, I do not have the complete idea how that system works.

Another thing is, I created 3 blog entries on national, political or any other issues that interest me as s partial fulfillment in the subject Computer Journalism.

…Story of a young man…

We were taking our breakfast yesterday beside a convenience store in Alabang, with my two colleagues who were seemed bugging on the whereabouts around the office and that worn-out performance statistics while I, seemed lost and pre-occupied with what’s going on (with my life), carefully planning what would happen after the end of the day – well, let’s say it is all about pondering on things that had happened yesterday and thinking what might happen today.

So I instantly noticed that I was out of place since I was a seat apart and they were the ones who were talking sh*t on statistics of their performance…well, the whole thing was all irrelevant for me though. Until a guy caught my attention who intentionally approached a mannequin fashionably dressed in a sort of cotton-made white long sleeve with light blue green shorts. There was  a bazaar in the middle of that zone  and we’re literally sitting in front of a store. Well, there were two guys in their company ID whom I initially thought of were just roaming around those shops, trying to find “good stuffs” just around the corner

One of these guys, or should I say a man in a white shirt and jeans walked in front of the mannequin, and intentionally looked at the clothes it’s wearing as if it will fit him. Well, I  am not stupid to think that he will purchase the cloth right for himself – of course, he will buy a cloth for a girl – though they were seemed making fun of themselves during the purchasing process and I assumed that his colleague was actually teasing him for purchasing a female dress.

Right at that moment, his actions was quite predictable that he will definitely buy the sleeve for he meticulously looked at it, slightly touched it, and then pays for it. And  the moment he looked and passed his hands on the fabric, I suddenly thought ‘where in the world would a man will buy a cloth for a woman right in the middle of that public venue?’

That view was astonishing! I’ve seen daddys buying clothes for their wives but not in my entire life that I’ve seen a young man purchase a simple-cut fabric for the woman of his dream (presumably). My heart melts at the sight of that incident. Maybe, there is something in this young man that made his actions quite lovely and pleasant to look at….or it could probably an effect of being too sentimental at that moment for me to appreciate that certain kind of action by a young man who just passed at our table. In fact, he just caught my entire attention by him, merely looking at the mannequin and I assume that he is thinking whether that sleeve will fits her girlfriend and that was a lovely act indeed!

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