Posts Tagged ‘Depth In An Idiot’

goodbye…goodbye…goodbye…

I came yester-night with the previous (and very first) company I worked with to accomplish my clearance and the exit interview as well…and the hardest part was…surrendering those “things” that has become part of me during my almost a-year stay at the company…it’s like leaving and surrendering a big part of myself…and at those very moment, you cannot exactly tell how the whole situation felt like…or could it just be something in my thought though.

…it’s like completely saying goodbye to the company and the people I learned to love with…and one of the reasons why I came to work is those people whom I learned to appreciate and understand…and now that I am clearing things up, it feels (until now that I am writing this blog) like you will never ever be ‘able’ to come back or it seems that I should just inhibit myself of thinking and planning to come back and see my colleagues again.

The thought that I am officially surrendering the stuffs that the company had lend me all throughout my stay and that I am parting away from them, it feels like it would take time to accept the whole situation…and as the saying goes, the truth is rarely pure, and never simple.

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I was never sure what ‘contemplate’ means until June 14th

It’s exactly 3 weeks from the last date of my employment and I’ll be officially completing my 1-year stay at that company.

It was a tough decision to leave the company (as this may always be the case) especially when you looked back and ponder all those bitter-sweet memories….and then with just one blink, you decided to let go and take a breathe.

It’s like a spur-of-the moment decision to file a letter, formally notifying the company that you’re leaving and your stay was pleasant and you enjoyed the support that the company has given you – of course, these were some of the cheesy lines that you’ll probably include in a letter. But the thing is, ARE YOU REALLY SURE THAT THIS IS WHAT YOU REALLY WANT?

On my last week, he told me ‘I’m giving you time to contemplate…’ but I was never sure what “contemplate” means until June 14th. I’ve heard this word once from one of my colleagues but never pay such time to look and understand the word, not until someone told me to do so (to contemplate) and then I pause for two days and kept on wondering what does that word mean – well, I read it myself and concluded that my decision is final.

1st June 2009 – until a year after….

I get to realized that this blog is no longer a mere “online journal” as I intended before rather, it seemed that it was a gallery of collective thoughts and memories – a sort of a paste board where you can post all the memories and things that you can perfectly (and partly) reminisce.

…and here I go again…it’s been a year since I  travel all the way to Eastwood Libis after being invited for my very first job interview. And after months of applying for my ideal jobs or should I say, career and after months of waiting for a job interview, finally, I hit off one luck of a lifetime!

Job hunting was such a painstaking task indeed!

And today, June 1st 2010 – it’s been a year since I finally got an invitation for a job interview and how ironic the situation is because I am currently rendering my last 30 days for my job where I initially landed to.
The thing may not be that painstaking as I am nearing to bade goodbye, but the thought that you’re “leaving for good” could be that sadder and harder part…
I finally decided…and I SHOULD leave for good!

Unang Araw Ng Pebrero

I forgot to write….not that I am into trouble….nor lazy to write a draft…..it’s just that I “really” don’t have the time…

It’s been a year….yup, it was on February 1st that we headed down to UP for an “interview”….yeah, an interview! And what the heck! It was a partial fulfillment for our major subject in Developmental Communication since few weeks from that, we’ll be graduating though.

I still vividly remember how pathetic we are at that day, travelling from Diliman to Dasma without any penny except for a mere transportation fee – as in literal na naghi-hiwalay kami ng mga groupmates ko na walang nag-aagahan sa simpleng dahilan na yung iba nag-check in sa UP Hotel at kaming mga na-late ay natulog sa isang apartelle sa QC….kamusta naman ‘yon ‘diba?

ANyway, February 1st the following year and still I am travelling….since then, I think what I’d have to do is ‘to travel’….and head back to what have happened through my own memories…

Feb 2010

twenty ow-nine

It was in January when I have to stay late until 1:00 in the morning (Manila Time) just to take a look at the inauguration of the first African American President of the United States of America – watching big names and personalities march toward that significant venue and see Barack Obama take oath as the new President – taking his slogan with NEW HOPE AND ‘CHANGE WE NEED’

I got three slices of pizza from a local fast food and keep the ‘box’ until now (until 2010)….literally! I don’t know, it never came to me to dispose the box….I just put them on my table with piles of papers, scratch papers and magazines on top

It was in March, officially taking our Bachelor’s degree during the Commencement with TOYM awardee as our guest-speaker, who is also an alumnus of DLSU…however, prior to that main even, I was feeling unwell

By the fourth month, I must say it was the peak of my vacation – A BIG BREAK after four years in the academe. That time, I was thinking, ‘finally! I can lay down and take a rest as much as I want…read books and wll be able to finish the novel I bought in September 2007’
I was also watching MODEL – a sort of documentary of some succesful supermodel such as Giselle, Astrid, Ines and Loneke to name a few

…ON THAT SAME MONTH, I got fever as what I’ve had on the previous month…but while taking a rest, that was the last time I got an opportunity to consistenly watch CASE UNCLOSED….

One day in April, my blockmate and I decided to go to a jobfair without any fix plan on our heads – we just got there, signed and then submitted our resume without thinking too much whether we’ll be hired in the coming weeks or worse, if we have ‘chance’ either

On April 27th, I was able to watch Secret Window, the movie adaptation from Danielle Steel’s book Secret Window, Secret Garden.

By May, I was hardly trying to finish the novel Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte (the novel I bought in September 2007) while waiting for even a phone call about the status of my job application. It was a past time indeed whilst waiting for the so-called “luck”, however, I failed! It was a pale and sort of laid-back month for me – I was doing nothing except that I was waiting for my luck and finishing Bronte’s novel.

…It was reported that RECESSION IS ON ITS 18th MONTH

Anyway….

No luck, turned to last resort – I applied online and by the last day of May, I received an invitation for an interview in Eastwood, SCHEDULE: TOMORROW

FAILED AND PASSED – A TRULY DESPERATE TURN
(wednesday failed and friday passed)

By the first week of June, I passed the interview and then signed the contract the following day (it was Saturday) and eventually, I was happy…I thought ‘grab the chance, this might be the start’….’take this job or you may end up nothing…c’mon it’s hard to find a career these days’….however, they made us wait for a month before we got officially hired. And in between those days, I was busy getting all the requirments which I’m not really serious in pursuing.

The other story is, while waiting for July, which is the start of “our” pre-hire orientation, I applied as a ‘freelance writer’ – the good thing is, it’s an online job! And to tell you honestly, THIS WAS THE VERY FIRST SERIOUS JOB I GOT SINCE THEN. I received a congratulatory note from the Admin and they activate my account.
I officially started my “freelance writing job” by the end of June and SUBMITTED MY FIRST ACADEMIC WRITE -UP BY FIRST WEEK OF JULY in which, shortly after that is our PRE-HIRE ORIENTATION.

To make the story short, I SIGNED THE CONTRACT, AND TAKE MY FIRST WORK IN THE BPO INDUSTRY WHICH I AM NOT REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT!

IT’S A LONG BUT SENSIBLE STORY BUT THE WHOLE POINT IS, I AM NOT SERIOUS WITH THE JOB!

I AM AFTER WITH THE NOT-SO-FULFILLING SALARY!!!

Come July and I just see myself attending the PRE-HIRE ORIENTATION and then voila! As they say, the rest was history! You know the feeling when you engaged youself in  a certain activity without that sort of serious commitment, and the only thing that motivates you is–

And then from July – the second half of year 2009 I must say, was all dead! I’ll reapeat: IT’S A LONG BUT SENSIBLE STORY BUT THE WHOLE POINT IS, I AM NOT SERIOUS WITH THE JOB!

I’m sick!  And you know why it feels like dead? Try to go to a job that you not ‘really love’ with your only motivation is salary…

Anyway, I got the money to buy few books and movies….

Before the year closed, I was able to watch DIrty Dancing on ETC (the last Sunday of 2009) – the first time I watch this movie was when I was a senior high school.

I was watching the last news broadcast of CBS Evening News for the year when they made a highlight / recap of some of the important events that made 2009 a significant year. They also shown pictures of important personalities in politics, arts and entertainment who left us and that’s where I heard a famous quotation from Don Hewitt, a former host of 60 Minutes who convincingly says: “It’s just four little words: Tell me a story”

Les(s)ions you could earn while you are in job hunting . . .

1. matutulala ka na lang. matutulala ka na lang dahil pagkatapos ng graduation at magdadalawang buwan na ay wala ka pang nakukuhang trabaho, at mapapatingin ka na lang sa kalendaryo n’yo sa sala o sa kuwarto mo o sa’n mang parte ng bahay niyo na antagal mo na palang “BAM” (tambay)! Sa kahuli-hulihan, matutulala ka at malulungkot sa dinranas mo ngayon.

2. desperate job hunters. Nagkakamali ka kung housewives lang ang pwedeng maging desperate…ba’t ‘di natin subukang ipares sa job hunters SLASH job seekers? Desperdo ka na talaga makahanap ng trabaho at kumita ng pera na tipong nakalimutan mong Labour Day pala at walang tao sa opisina na gusto mong pagtanungan kung may opening ba sila o wala (para sa katulad mo!).

3. makakalimutin. Malamang, sa kaiisip mo ng trabaho e makalimutan mo nang may iba ka pa palang problema – o ‘di naman kaya’y ma-divert ang atensyon mo sa ibang bagay gaya ng pang-uuto sa parents mo, sa kapatid mo o kaya sa tropapips mo! Halimbawa, mang-aarbor ka ng singsing, chokers at kung anu-anu pa…..

4. another les(s)ion gained. marerealize mo na hindi mo pala muna kailangang kumuha at makakuha agad ng trabaho na may kinalaman sa tinapos mong kurso. Bakit? (Tanong mo sa inaapplayan mo!)

Kung graduate ka ng Advertising Management, bakit hindi mo “muna” subukang mag-call center o kaya’y mag-apply sa isang fast food chain bilang isang trainee for a managerial position. Hihihi! Tunay ngang masaklap ang katotohanan pero baka malaman mo na lang sa banding huli na hindi mo muna talaga kailangang mag-apply ng trabaho na related sa tinapos mo no’ng college dahil isa pa, wala ng chance at iisipin mong masasadlak ka na lang sa kasalukuyan mong estado – tambay!

5. learn from your seniors. sa isang banda, ma-re-realize mo rin na may kabuluhan pala ang mga ‘words of wisom’ na sinabi sa’yo ng mga seniors mo no’ng nasa academe ka pa. Learn from the experts ika nga, pwede mong pagnilay-nilayan ‘yan bago ka maghanap at mag-apply ng trabaho.

6. magiging metikoloso/metikolosa ka. totoo. ingat ka sa pag-aaply….baka kasi yung sinasabi mong “pansamantala” na trabaho e maging career mo na in the near future, ouch! Ang sakit no’n! Yung tipong sinabi mo sa sarili mo na mag-co-call center ka muna habang hindi mo pa nakukuha yung gusto mong trabaho, pero ilang buwan o taon mula ngayon e may ‘career’ ka na sa industriya ng BPO.

//to be continued

. . . BUHAY FRESH-GRAD . . .

 

I NOW REALIZE……ONLY AFTER GRADUATION

 

1. Days after graduation, feeling mo magkakasakit ka (seryoso!) dahil wala kang magawa sa loob ng kuwarto mo – wala ng katakot-takot na HOMEWORKS, wala ng babasahin for recitation or next discussion, wala ka nang inaayos na schedule for tomorrow’s or next week’s academic or extra-curricular-related activities, wala ka nang inaalala na may meeting ka pala with your group mates, wala ka nang inaalalang project at DI-MAKATAONG DEADLINES at WALA KA NG ACADEMIC EXAMS!……yung tipong WALA KA NG NI-RE-REVIEW PER CHAPTER TAS COVER TO COVER!!!….At isang araw, ma-re-realize mo na lang, CLEARANCE na at HINDI KA PA TAPOS SA THESIS! (Sad reality it is!)

 

LOGIC: Kung hindi ka pa tapos sa thesis, e di walang clearance!

 

2. I now realize…..only after graduation…..karapat-dapat ka na ba talagang tawaging ‘Alumni’ ng La Salle? Tanggap mo na ba na tapos na ang buhay mo sa undergrad at officially alumnus or alumna ka na?

 

3. Makakahanap ka kaya ng trabaho na related sa field mo? (ouch!) O baka maisipan mo na lang mag-abroad o mag-call center?

 

4. Confuse ka pa kung papasok ka sa Graduate School – pero ang katotohanan, wala ka lang talagang pang-enrol! Hihihi!

 

5. E kung isulat mo kaya lahat ng complaints mo sa department n’yo pag-pass mo ng evaluation, tingnan natin kung ‘di mawarik ang buhay ng mga propesor do’n!!!

 

6. I now realize……only after graduation….na isa na ko sa mga unemployed na Pinoy (pero tingin ko ‘di pa kami kasama sa statistics kasi April lang ung graduation namin e!)

 

7. ……..mahirap pala pag wala ng klase…..kasi wala ng baon! (ouch!)

 

8. MALAMANG hindi mo matatandaan ang karamihan (o kahit kaunti man lang) sa mga itinuro sa ‘yo ng mga prpesor mo nung mga panahon ng discussion n’ya…..hindi mo maiintindihan ang salitang ‘academic learning’ at ang kalikasan nito…….hindi mo ma-a-absorb ang mga itinuro sa’yo nung days ng business math, advertising, algebra, trigo, physical science, scriptwriting, film production, mass media law, philosophy, Public Relations, PE, ethics at kung anu-ano pa…..hindi mo lahat magagamit ‘yan sa trabaho dahil ang matatandaan mo, ang VALUES na itinanim ng propesor mo sa kukote mo!

 

 

 at…….

 

 

 

 

Hindi natatapos ang buhay sa eskwela…….

 

 

 

 

FRUSTRATIONS on GRADUATION

 

1. Segue: I was a DIE-HARD fan of UAAP 65th season……DLSU-ADMU match is definitely incomparable…..and I was a BIG FAN of ADMU Blue Eagles…though I never knew that in the near future, I will be a Lasallian – true green blood Lasallian!……………Well, that was a thing of the past.

 

Way back when I was a second-year high school student, majority of our class decided to take on what we called “adventure trip in the bangin” – as in we literally slided down the slope, crossed a small river, and trek again in the bangin the mere fact that there was an EASY and NO-SWEAT PATH TO THE VENUE! Wala lang, adventure trip nga e ‘diba?! And what the group paid for it was the ‘first-time’ experience in the bangin. That fateful day (as far as I remember) was the very first time I cut classes because we assumed that the coming weeks will be no-regular classes.

 

And here’s the story: The moment we reached the venue, you would literally see the rear of the College of Business Administration Building (I didn’t know it then). The venue where we are in was actually utilized for agri-business purposes – a huge open-wide space indeed! And I together with the rest of my classmates were doing all these tripping like shouting ‘Hi’ and ‘Hello’ to those Lasallian students who came in at the CBA porch. And honestly, that moment, it seemed to me that it really feels great to stand at that high balcony facing a mirror-image of a rich-green pasture. Wow! And then the other day, another trip with those Lasallian students: I was hardly shouting to them, ‘Mga talunan kayong mga taga-La Salle! Boo! Mga talunan!’…..’Go Ateneo! Mga talunan kayong mga taga-La Salle sa UAAP! Ang yayabang n’yo! Go Ateneo Blue Eagles!’

 

 

Isn’t it exciting and memorable?

 

 

 

And you know what’s the real story?….. L

 

 

For four years of studying in DLSU, I’ve never been able to go up and stand at that porch for a millisecond, really! One of my biggest frustrations indeed! Just to stand up there even with an escort and wave my hands to somebody or may be nobody never happened…..as in it didn’t happened! Isn’t it memorable? Well that was a lot more frustrating!!!

 

Bakit hindi ko nagawa ‘yon? In an attempt to do that on my sophomore year, wala lang, natakot lang naman  ako na baka mahuli ako ng Discipline Officer (DO) na ewan ko nga ba kung mahuhuli talaga ako. But I was just a bit scared since there were rumors at that time that it became off to students because of DOs roaming around that building! Until the time came when I was too busy with my acads and extra-curricular activities that I forgot to pursue such….and mind you, my college was in the East Campus and BA was at the West….do I mind?

 

Holy S**t!

 

 

 

 

 

 

***And now, for the past 6 years, wala lang……as in wala pa rin….mag-a-Alumi Homeconing na this April!

 

 

 

 

 

Waaahhh!!!

 

2. Frustartion: I’ve never been to any UAAP Men Basketball Game!

 

3. Nagbago na’t lahat-lahat ang pangalan nitong classy at sosyal na kainan na ‘to sa may Cultural Heritage Complex, mula sa pangalang La Buena Comida hanggang sa naging La Cacita na s’ya ngayon, hindi pa rin ako nakakakain dito! Aguy!!!

 

4. Beware! “Slightly” creepy!

 

Our org had this construction site beside the College of Engineering, Architecture & Technology (CEAT) building and of course, we assumed that it was “our” place since we’re the only group who’s inclined to set construction for theatrical plays and other events in the campus.

 

When you’re at that site, it’s really inevitable to stare at the newly constructed CEAT Building – from top angle down at the ground parking area – nice architectural design. And if you are the type of student who feels a little intrigued what’s inside the 5th floor, you’d probably do the same thing as what we did.

 

The two of us, sophomores then, decided that some time may be a good time to go up there at the 5th floor of the CEAT Building especially at around 8:00 in the evening when last classes/sessions officially end. Creepy little things…….

 

And finally, when the most-awaited day came (last day of FINAL EXAM WEEK – 1st sem), she never showed up! I only texted her that afternoon assuming that she remembered what we have agreed on. Ayun, kumusta naman, hindi na natuloy ang pag-akyat sa 5th floor ng CEAT!

 

 

5. Isa pa sa mga frustrations ko, hindi pa ako nakakapag-jogging sa Oval ng tipong nag-jo-jogging lang – alam mo yung feeling na hindi ka nag-jo-jogging dahil PE n’yo lang at kelangan mong pumasa!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

REMINISSS…….

 

1. Bago ka officially ma-admit sa program (Communication), kailangan mo munang dumaan ng interview. At ang naging interviewer ko ay former Chair ng Communication Arts Department, as in katatapos lang ng term n’ya at hindi ko akalin na matapos ang apat na taon ko sa La Salle, matapos ang mismong Baccalaureate Mass, s’ya mismo ang nag-ayos ng hood sa toga ko bago ang class picture taking.

 

***Noong araw ng interview, totoo pala yung idioms na ‘butterfly in the stomach’ at ngayong graduate na’ko, she acted like a stage mom after the mass.

 

2. I’ll never forget this clever Dean of Student Services when she corrected me of using either “Attached” or “Herewith” but never “Attached herewith is the list of….” That was a useful remark anyway!

 

 

3. First time that I encountered the word “geodetic” engineering.

 

4. First time kong makita si Oble ng malapitan nung freshman ako….

 

5. “Inaway” ako ng prof ko at nung mismong araw na ‘yun, sabi ko sa sarili ko…..….’ipapabugbog ko s’ya pag labas n’ya ng campus since matanda naman na siya e’…….Naalala ko na lang sabi ng blockmate ko no’n, ‘hayaan mo, mamamatay din yun!’ J

 

6. …..Para ka palang sumali ng fraternity pag sumali ka sa Performing Arts Group (PAG) Hahaha! Missed those days!

 

7. Nakakayamot pag binibiro kami ng mga prof na kaya lang daw kami kumuha ng course namin e dahil mahina kami sa Math! Hindi naman lahat ito na ang last choice e and I should be defensive kasi ito ang first choice ko without considering thar I’m the usual weak student when it comes in Mathematics. And take note, hindi ka tatantanan ng Math kahit ano pa ang course mo……at sabi nga ng isang prof namin, walang pinagkaiba ang minor sa major subject – parehong may tendency na bumagsak ka d’yan!

 

8. Maaalala mo ang isang gabi sa buhay mo na………humiga ka sa hall way ng JFH at……………nakipag………kwentuhan ka na lang sa classmate mo kasi kinabukasan wala kang homework! Ang sarap ng petiks paminsan-minsan!

 

9. 1st Recollection tapos kinabukasan ng 6:00 a exposure trip at Mowelfund, ABS-CBN and GMA….

 

10. Recollection and Retreat will always be memorable- 1st recollection and then exposure trip the day after; 2nd reco – the day before was the major concert of Lasallian Pointes n’ Flexes Dance Company in Insular Life, Alabang, the day after recollection was the 1st day of a week-long major production of Teatro Lasalliana; 3rd reco – the day that I refused ‘to direct’ the Lasallian Centerstage – a big concert-event of the CIHM; and finally the Retreat – 2 weeks after (if I’m not mistaken) was our Thesis Defense!

 

11. Ang thesis, bow! Ang thesis na mukang MAS MAHAL PA SA BUHAY MO!

 

12. Maaalala mo na ‘baka’ isa sa mga rason kung bakit ka pumayat no’ng college days mo e dahil sa palakad-lakad ka sa 27-ektarayang kampus ni De La Salle!

 

13. Gumawa kami ng docu – as in very first docu ng group namin na pag pinanuod mo….tingnan natin kung may maiintindahan ka dahil may mapapanuod ka na talking heads for at least 8 minutes – ang masaklap, hindi kami nag-cut no’ng editing! (malay ba namin, first time e!)

 

14. May mga tao kang ma-e-encounter sa hinaharap na na-encounter mo na pala ilang taon na ang nakakalipas – at biglang may shocking revelation/s sila sa isang hindi inaasahang panahon at lugar. Yung tipong SM Mall tapos katatapos lang ng concert. *wink

 

15. FIRST EVER SILENT FILM ……

 

16. THESIS DEFENSE

 

17. Bababa ang grades dahil sa extra-curricular activities….

 

18. A month preparation for the PERFORMING ARTS GROUP GRAND PRODUCTION – so siyempre haggard ka and then 2 days after that grand production, after mong mag-over night at magpuyat sa ULS ay Graduation Pictorial na! Totally chaos! Anong itusra mo no’n?!?

 

19. Gusto kong maniwala sa sarili ko na nakakita na “talaga” ako ng taong sinasaniban – ganun pala yun, tumitirik yung mata tapos matigas yung katawan J

 

20. Maaalala mo yung araw na wala kayong pinag-usapan ng mga block mates mo buong araw kundi tungkol sa trabaho (career talk ba!)….yung tipong hindi n’yo na alam kung mag-ko-call center na lang ba kayo, tatambay muna ng ilang buwan o MAG-AARTISTA na lang dahil alam mong mahirap ang trabaho sa Pinas.

 

21. Matatandaan mo ang mga araw na parang bi-nrain wash kayo ng mga prof n’yo o inimpluwensyahan ng bonggang-bongga ang mga pag-iisip n’yo tungkol sa discipline na pinili mo kung kaya mas pinili mong kumuha ng career sa PR imbis na sa dati mong pangarap na maging broadcaster – na mas ginusto mong maging film maker kaysa maging TV reporter – na mas pipiliin mo ang career sa Advertising dahil gusto mong gumawa ng Advocacy Campaign at bigla mo nalang “i-ta-trash” ang pangarap mo (since high school) na maging isang batikang TV documentarist. L

 

22. …….na higit pa sa pagsulat, pag-i-interview at pag-ri-research ang matututunan mo sa paggawa ng thesis……..marami pang iba…….

 

 

23. Bigla mong mapagninilay-nilayan………………

meron kang na-miss isulat dito sa entry na’to at hindi mo na ma-recall – gusto mong mag-reminisce sa mga events nung college life mo kaso ‘parang’ nakalimutan mo na….so hanggang dito muna!

 

 

 

 

grades…grades…grades…

Sayang!

 

 

 
Hindi ko naman “yata” kasalanan. . . . .

Alam ko may effort….

 

 

 

Pero huli na pala ang lahat….

Basta nakakapanghinayang lang…..

Sayang…..

 

 

 

 

‘Diba may mga bagay naman sa mundo na “DESERVED” magkaroon ng ‘second chance’?

*blink

Nakausap ko noong linggo ng gabi yung kaibigan kong lalaki….masaya siya kausap…liberal kasi, ika nga nila ‘anything under the sun’ pwedeng pag-usapan, basta pag siya lang ang kausap ko. May mga kwento kasi siya na medyo personal na hindi n’ya na kinukwento sa iba pa naming “close friends!”

 

…. naguguluhan ako sa pagkatao nun eh!

 

Aminado naman siyang bisexual siya at ayaw niyang tinatawag siyang “bakla” kasi nga kina-classify n’ya ang sarili niya bilang isang bisexual…at isa pa, pag tinatanong ko kung bakit ayaw niyang tinatawag siyang ganun, nakakatuwa kasi mukha siyang may “identity crisis”…parang siya yung nabobo sa tanong ko…ang isinasagot niya lang sa’kin…’wala, basta..kasi ano……..’

tapos ako ulit yung nabobo sa sagot n’ya!

 

May itinanong pa ‘ko sa kanya na sa palagay ko e sobrang sensitive at ‘below the belt’ na para pa pag-usapan sa kalye. Magkaganun pa man, malawak naman mag-isip nun e, kaya binigla ko na! Tinanong ko lang naman kung pagdating ba sa kama, sexual pleasure, libog o ano pang ma-irelate dun e kanino ba siya mas masaya…ang sagot niya lang, “sa lalaki!”

 

Naguluhan ulit ako!

 

Ibang-iba pala pagkatao nun pag tinanong mo nang ganun..o baka ako yung iba? May ibang perspektiv ba?…Baka ako yung nakakulong lang sa sarili kong ideya at paniniwala?!

 

Basta magulo! Ang tanong ko ngayon, ‘yan bang mga BISEXUAL MEN na ‘yan e na-i-inlab din ba sa mga babae? Saka anung basehan kung atraktiv sa kanila ang isang babae? Saka kanino ba talaga sila mas masaya kung sexual life ang pag-uusapan?

Nang dahil sa sulat…

Hindi ako nag-agahan…

 

Hindi ako nag-tanghalian…

 

Gusto kong mag-mura! Kaso parang walang emosyon…parang walang pakiramdam kung isusulat ko lang siya sa pahina na ‘to!

 

Alam mo ba kung bakit gusto kong magmura?

 

Nakauwi kasi ako ng alas-siyete ng gabi na hindi man lang nag-tatanghalian dahil sa nakamamatay at nakaka-high blood na pag-e-edit ng letter para sa mga interviewee namin sa ‘ming thesis!

 

Gusto kong magmura!

 

Naka-dalawang beses kaming nag-re-print! Hindi namin maperpek ang sulat kaya hindi namin ma-please ang thesis adviser namin pati na rin ang Tagapangulo ng Departamento ng Komunikasyon!

 

Gusto kong magmura!

 

Para kaming tanga ng thesis partner ko! Ang punto ko lang naman e tama nang maayos ang grammar pati syntax ng sulat pati na rin ang pag-punto sa intensyon naming mga estudyante! Tama na para sa’kin ang sulat, e sa palagay ko naman ‘pag binasa ‘yan nung recipient e maiinitinidan n’ya naman! At malay ba natin kung anong taste nun at standards niya sa naiintindihan at hindi maintindihang sulat? Malay ba natin kung anong impressive sa kanya o hindi? At malay ba natin kung nakakaintindi pala siya o hindi? (joke!)

                                                                                             

Ang nakaka-bad trip pa do’n, kailangan mo pang isulat sa kauna-unahang linya:

 

The Communication Arts Department of the College of Liberal Arts offers an undergraduate course in Communication Research II….

 

Gusto kong magmura!

 

Sulat lang! Naipalabas naman namin yung intensyon namin dun e napakaperpektita nung tagapanagulo na ‘yun!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tang-ina!